Love fades on a dime and quick puff of cigarette smoke and ashen lungs in the backway alley of New York Life

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She told herself she'd give up love before she ever gave up cigarettes, cause at least with cigarettes, she knew the consequences that falling in too deep would bring, and to her, the slow rotting of her teeth, and decaying of her beauty was far more preferable then the aches and pains of falling in love with a man who couldn't keep his promise

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At least then she wouldn't attract those who only sought her out for one thing

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That's not to say she didnt hope to be loved one day, but she was scared..

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Sometimes love can feel like pain - and while with age did come wisdom, she never did learn to differentiate the two,

her body left bruised from all her failed attempts of learning, like a toddler left unsure and crying after touching a hot stove too many times, and being introduced to how painful life can truly be, when left to the follies of their curiosity..

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As so.. She wrapped her heart with gauze - hoping to stop the bleeding, but it only suffocated her - making it hard to feel the beating of her heart